Showing posts with label Rants. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rants. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

It's 2010.....and it's been another one of those awfully depressing CNYs. Frankly, I don't see what the hype is about. Its all a hypocrite's show anyways.

Moving on.

Work.

What to say about work? It's pretty much a messed up convoluted mess that SHOULDN'T be so!! Frankly what is needed is proper management, some empathy and loads of dedication! Instead, there's a shitload of whining and complaining....there are people who scold and criticise too much and praise too little....there are others who think we're effing robots...there are people who goof off, can't finish their work then wail and whine and throw silent tantrums when they get chastised. But hey~! You keep your head down and soldier on. Isn't that what a good little worker bee is supposed to do? Not question but just DO. Every darned thing that needs doing in the hive.

Some days I really wish I had a good pair of soundproof headphones.


Wednesday, February 04, 2009

People who have lousy photography skills but think they are extremely good at it should really NEVER be allowed near a camera much less be allowed to own one! It's even more annoying when they wax lyrical about their "styles".
it just really induces a sudden extreme desire to punch said people in the face

Sunday, January 18, 2009

I probably have always known what a shallow hypocritical person you were but I didn't want to see it.

I'm glad that when I finally did everything became clear.
For a while I beat myself up about being such an idiot...about being so blind...about caring so much when you clearly didn't...

Now I know I was the lucky person.
The better person.

Because even now you still are that same shallow hypocritical person you are.
And I am so much better off without you.
Perhaps one day I'll forgive you...and pass it off as a character flaw and immaturity.
But right now, it's all I can do to be civil in your presence.

I hope one day you'll learn some humility...some gratitude and some brains.
I hope I'll learn forgiveness.

I'm sorry but the more I see of you the more incensed I get.
And bitter...
And sad........

So I shall do my best to avoid you. Until one day when I am big enough to forgive and forget...until I am big enough to let go.

Until I know you have no hold on me and I am a whole person again.

Till then, goodbye.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Love songs....they are every-freaking-where...
You turn on the radio and chances are nine out of ten times, it's a love song.
Break-up songs...please-love-me songs...I'm-on-top-of-the-world songs....

You go into a supermarket or a mall and the songs they play are love songs.
You go home and some one in your house is playing a love song...

Bloody hell.

I used to not notice the types of songs when I listen to music but now, my mind automatically recoils at any sort of reference to the four-lettered L word. Which sucks because all I can listen to now are dark twisty sort of screamy songs. And these songs play havoc with my already messed up mind.

Shucks.

I hate love songs. And I hate being me.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Just another week...where the weekend felt somewhat empty and unfullfiling...(it's me laaa)

Randomly decided to change my player colour to red instead of the normal blue...maybe because I'm tired of feeling blue and I'm looking to feeling...I dunno...alive I suppose?

Sometimes I feel that if I didn't puff up after drinking, and if I really liked the taste, I might've become an alco...lucky eh? But at least I know FOR SURE I'll NEVER become a smoker. Bloody arseholidic people can just go die!

I mean, if you wanna go smoke yourself to an early grave, then by all means! Please don't smoke around us who would actually like to live long enough to see our grandchildren go to University!! I especially HATE the arses who smoke when people eat. Hello...breathing it isn't enough the blardy smoke actually taints the food as well can?
*screams in frustration*

And Jap classes are postponed...AGAIN....

Why? Missing THREE people to get a class started. SO if next week still don't have the three then how? Post-pone again?

On another random note...I really wanna watch Singin' In The Rain. Dunno what came over me one day and I Youtube-d it and now I really wanna watch. Which means I wanna buy the DvD...which, by extension, means I wanna go home.

I'm rambling. Whatever.

In any case, I stopped following ANTM (C11) for a while because the Youtube channel mysteriously disappeared but a blog I follow pretty much gives ok updates. So, the Asian girl is gone (I liked her! She had sass!) so no first Asian-American ANTM! And that Elina is gone too. No surprise since it's becoming so bloody obvious! The judges are a biased lot and quite frankly, a couple of girls should've gone home so much earlier but are still there. Their photos are lackluster (to say the least!) and really they are ANNOYING! Also, the constant camera-hogger, Tyra, is starting to really grate. This is ANTM...not the Tyra Show! Pffft!!

Oh well...the sum of the week...and the month pretty much...erm...don't know what else to say except trying to go swimming regularly is like trying to pull a really HUGE turnip out of the ground. (I'm sure you've read the story before) Needs a whole blardy entourage and usually that doesn't even happen. Best thing is, it wasn't even my idea in the first place! BAH~!

I feel fatter...which makes me feel even more uncontented...which makes me feel inadequate...which makes me feel like reaching for a bottle...which also makes me feel like puking. So clearly I'm an unhappy person.

Sue me!

I shall now attempt to figure out alternative methods to aiding sleep. I figure I'm cranky because I CANNOT SLEEP and the freakin heat isn't helping!!! *sigh*

Ok, enough rambling and ranting...back to work! *extra long sigh*

Monday, October 20, 2008

MAMMA MIA! THE MUSICAL TIX ALL SOLD OUT~!!!!
*sobz*

"Korek"-ed myself out of bed early just to rush over to One Utama (after a late Lancome event the night before no less!!!) to watch the pre-show and buy the tix....was seriously disappointed when the guy at the Ticket Axccess Counter told me it was totally sold out!!!

*sighz*

Treated myself to a manicure to console myself which actually put me in a fouler mood because the damned store girls (I won't even call them manicurists!) were so RUDE and the girl who did my nails CUT me until I freaking BLED! Then rubbed OIL in it summore.
@^%&$#@@(&!!!!
Sakit sial~!!!! TWO FINGERS kayz!
She just ripped the skin out!!

The end result was seriously pathetic. I could've done a better job by myself at home!! The application was so unsmooth there were bubbles and cracks...how could anyone fuck up OPI nail polish?? So now my nails are painted an uneven, bubbly GOLD though I clearly said BRONZE. If I wanted to change colours I'd have to pay an extra RM15!!! CB sial!!!

So, yeah....all in all it wasn't a very good day. This was Saturday by the way...

*grouse grouse*

It was saved a bit by Sim & Joa cos we went out for dinner, chatted till 12am about the antics of certain people! LoLz~!

Then on Sunday I literally fell out of bed because I was convinced it was Monday! So there goes my chances of a nice leisurely lie in. :(
Lazed around on Sunday with my Sims and drove with LY and CLay to Asia Cafe for dinner. Was supposed to go to some Yoga show with the girls but...aiyah...sien abit for us so we skipped and went for dinner. Decided to go to K3K instead which was really niiiiiccccceeeeee~!!

Yummilicious~! ^^

*update!*
Joa found out they actually blocked some tix so she called and told me~!! Might have a chance of seeing the show after all~!! *nibbles fingertips*

Thanks Joa for the heads up~!!!! Muarkz~!

Monday, September 29, 2008

Ok, first I shall start this off by a warning...

THIS IS A RANT GODDAMN IT~!!!!

I decided not to post this in my Wordpress Blog because I am totally irritated and sien by this particular term and the idiots who use it the way they think is right. Of course it has to be totally wrong.

I AM GOING TO BE JUDGEMENTAL AND BIASED since it's MY PEROGATIVE and this is MY BLOG~!

So call me bitch or whatever, but I will say hurtful stuff!

Ok, let me just start of by saying I get VERY irritated when I hear stupid little Cina-fied girls talking about their 'lovers'.

Ok, let me clue you in you clueless bimbo, a 'lover' is a sexual partner! Nope, not really the right term for bf is it? Unless you really are the little slut and have had many 'lovers' as you claim to do! Then again most of these cina-fied girls are really little sluts so I guess it's justified gushing about how 'sweet' your 'lover' is and how in love you are!

Two 'lovers' later and they are still nauseatingly, disgustingly gushy about whichever ugly bugger that's screwing them! GEEZ~!

And oh, did I mention how sickening it is to hear those cina-muis gush about their hubbies/lou kongs? So desperate for marriage izzit? Then later when you break up it's no longer forever and ever and ever?

*vomits*

Another thing I totally cannot stand is how they talk about how many 'lovers' they've had...like talking about collecting dolls or something! So totally horny izzit? Cannot rein in the libido ke? Have some self respect la! Or maybe it's the raging maternal instincts? I didn't know maternal instincts manifested in girls as young as 14! My, how the human race has developed!

All I can say to you is;
1) Guys totally go for your uber annoying, brainless, bimbotic, breathless, I-cannot-take-care-oh-myself, squeaky voice. Well kudos for you! It's ok since most of the time your IQ is around the below 100 range. I wonder how he'll be able to stand that voice when you're 30!
2) No, leggings that stop mid-thigh and a skirt do NOT go. Unless you're a super cool Goth chic and you match well. Too bad that can't be said for you! If being colour blind and fashion missing were a crime, you'd be thrown into jail faster than you can say, "Harajuku?" in that annoying little-girl voice!
3) I really hope you know about birth control and STD prevention since counting by the amount of 'lovers' you've had you a probably a walking festering pit of STDs!
4) If you're so desperate to marry and be a mother, I hope when your child's IQ exceeds yours and he/she/it gets old enough to realize that normal moms don't talk like retarded children, he/she/it is totally understanding and throw you into a theraphy clinic which you totally need!

*deep breath and exhale*

I dunno what brought this on but SERIOUSLY! Stop MANGLING the English language~!

"Look at her, a prisoner of the gutters, condemned by every syllable she utters! By right she should be taken out and hung, for the cold-blooded murder of the English tongue!" - P. Henry Higgins, My Fair Lady.

I shall now go and stew in my own juices whilst smiling at cina-fied bimbos with no fashion sense who can't stop chattering loud enough for the whole freaking mall to hear and dreaming of strangling them as I go.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I feel like I'm turning into this bitter old fat hag who is miserable pratically every waking second...wait...who's to say I'm happy even in my sleep?


Whatever.



Anyways, went to Marie (pronounced Ma-ree-AY) Digby's showcase (hmm...performance la) @ 1 Utama...was seriously floored by the amount of ppl there, and just how few of them have heard anything other than "Umbrella" and "Say It Again".



Anyways, she's really pretty and is one of those rare singers that sing really REALLY well live! As Ryo said, she makes playing the guitar look HOT~!



Got uber grouchy at this family jostling in front of me and only got a glimpse of the stage when they finally left.

Tak tahu siapa datang buat apa?? CIS!



Anyways, afterwards, she actually had to be escorted (by armed security guards no less!) to GAP to begin the autograph session. Didn't help that fans were hounding the security team and jostling for closeup pics. Stupid or what? Just LINE UP and then get a closeup laaaa!! She HAS to sign right in front of you right??? Stupid donkeys.

Didn't bother staying for the signing session since I haven't bought her CD and wasn't about to brave the crazy crowd in GAP to buy a t-shirt for her to sign!


Anyways, photos from ROCK UP! 2008 in random order below.

(I took out a lot of pictures)






































































































































































Modelling session pics in the next post~!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Why oh why did I agree to that nonsense?

Shouldn't have wasted my time!!!! *screams in frustration*

And this is AFTER I promised myself not to do shit like this again. Getting so frustrated I feel like something's going to blow somewhere~!!!!

FUCK this shit. I swear it really is the last time!!
*slams head against wall repeatedly*

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I've been struggling with a myriad of emotions...

ANGERdenialDISAPPOINTMENTdisgustReliefFURYfrustrationAnnoyance
HAPPINESSmentalexhaustionDISBELIEFresentmentEXASPERATIONdepression
SADNESSdespondenceREVULSIONloathingSICKappalledUSEDthankfulWORRIED

and many many more....

in conclusion....

you guys can go fuck yourselves with my blessings next time.

I don't ever want to have anything to do with you people ever again.

And you know...I've been saying this for a long time. This time I am really way too tired to bother anymore.

Thanks Ryo for hearing me out!! See ya at the Marie Digby do this Wednesday!! And congrats at getting the asst photog position! :)

Monday, April 21, 2008

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NOPE

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I now have a much stronger conviction.

FUCK IT!!~!

Monday, April 14, 2008

SCREW BLOODY VIOS DRIVERS AND AVANZA DRIVERS!!!

Damned lousy drivers!! Vios drivers drive like slow fat arseholidic COWS whilst bloody Avanzas think they're tiny armored Kancils!

FUCKERS!

Btw, this is because a grand total of THREE Vios-es today drove like shit arse cows in front of me today hogging the damned road today. And a grand total of THREE Avanzas simply swerved in front of me today.

*tooooooooooooooooooooooooot*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

You know something? Every morning when I look through the papers for media monitoring, inevitably I'd stumble across that sordid face/saga.

But you know what? It's getting damned annoying!!

People, get OVER the bloody Edison-screws-every-slut-in-the-HK-scene scandal already!! (or whatever you want to call it)

Frankly, I'm tired of hearing about what a big hoo-hah it is. I'm tired of having the entertainment page swamped with stories about how many people want to kill him and why they want to kill him etc!! As for the "victims", they are seriously NOT qualified for the term as ALL the females in the shots leaked were CONSENSUAL (i.e. did it with consent!). Simply put, they are reaping the consequences of being stupid enough to take those raunchy pics.

*rollz eyes, scrunches up newspaper and lobbs it into trashcan*

Monday, July 30, 2007

Am soooo FRUSTRATED!!!

As aptly depicted by Stickgal.....














*screams in utter frustration*

Saturday, July 28, 2007

I am SO ANGRY right now I can BARELY SPEAK.

I NEVER EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR DAMNED FACE AGAIN AND I WILL NEVER TALK TO YOU OR LISTEN TO YOU AGAIN!

BLOODY IDIOT!

IF I HADN'T FOUND OUT I'D STILL BE PISSED BUT NOT THAT PISSED...NOT UNTIL I REALIZED SOMETHING ELSE. AND NOW I HAVE GONE BEYOND PISSED. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK SO DON'T EVEN BOTHER TRYING TO JUSTIFY YOUR ACTIONS THIS TIME.

AND YES YOU ARE A SPOILED BRAT. A CHILD IN A GROWN-UPS BODY.

SOD OFF TO HELL, BUGGER!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I

Have

NEVER

been

so

fucking

PISSED OFF

ever!!!!

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did I mention extreme disappointment??

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

You know something?

I am so SICK of being a freaking punch bag for every person who has stress in this whole goddamned Uni.

I am blardy SICK of having to act like I'm fine when all I really wanna do is give certain people a tight slap across the fucking face.

I am freaking TIRED of having to hear all about you and seeing your black face when it was NOT MY GODDAMNED FAULT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I am also REALLY REALLY SICK of having to be the one to be yelled at, pointed at, accused, whined at, complained at, given the most stupid excuses I have ever heard in the whole face of this freaking planet...the list just DRAGS on.

I am panicking like MAD and I HAVE to look calm. How else is everyone supposed to function if I started looking as harrassed and stressed as I feel??? I have to be encouraging when really I want to rip their stupid vapid faces to shreds everytime they ask stupid questions and give me shit and think they the stuff.

I am so goddammed EXHAUSTED and I STILL have to look like EVERYTHING is fine even though it is NOT.

I can't even cry over this shit though I blew the dam the other day for another super stressful reason. I can't even SCREAM my frustrations.

I am SICK of having to answer questions that others who were at meetings SHOULD KNOW. I am SICK of people making changes WITHOUT my APPROVAL SO WHEN IT TANKS I GET TO TAKE THE BASHING. I am SICK sick SICK sick SICK of having to listen when all I want to do is try my goddamned best to SLEEP.

Yes SLEEP!!!!

I did NOT sleep AT ALL for THREE NIGHTS cos I was so stressed and the sum total of my sleeptime is probably 8hrs a week?? And still I'm expected to function like a Superwoman. Thank goodness my prescription is coming!!!

All I have to say is GO TO HELL!

Ps : This rant refers to many many many many people all of whom had better watch out cos I've been nothing but nice so far. But push it and I swear to whatever's up there that I'll make you sorry you were born.

Monday, July 02, 2007

I have officially become a vampire.

Why??
Simply because I sleep when the sun rises. When the sun peeks over the hills, then I fall asleep from pure exhaustion. And why is that??

Because of a Bloody Bloody Bloody HEATWAVE!!!!

I toss and turn the whole damn night even though I've taken a cold cold shower...I still sweat like mad. And heat rash has broken out all over my body....even my damned ELBOWS cracked open!! And they hurt like MAD!! During the day, the sun burns through my clothes and cooks my skin. I HATE IT!!!!!!

GAH!!!!!!!!

I am a COLD person!! I LIKE the cold!!! I EMBRACE the cold!! I NEED to live in the cold!!!

My dream place would be somewhat like this....













Or maybe not so isolated....maybe this...
















Or this....
















But definately NOT this!!! (Which is what it feels like these days!!!)




Can't remember where the desert shot is from though...*wince*






















Tuesday, June 05, 2007

I have been sitting here with an empty brain for hours staring at a blank doc....wondering how the hell I should start my Introduction....
(not counting the many many hours I have already spent trying to coax my brain into gear the past two weeks)
.....and did I mention that it's 2.30am??????

And that I have a pounding headache, a temperature, runny nose and stomach that can't stop expelling it's watery contents????





























I HATE HATE HATE my THESIS!!!!

*screams in frustration*