It's 2010.....and it's been another one of those awfully depressing CNYs. Frankly, I don't see what the hype is about. Its all a hypocrite's show anyways.

Moving on.

Work.

What to say about work? It's pretty much a messed up convoluted mess that SHOULDN'T be so!! Frankly what is needed is proper management, some empathy and loads of dedication! Instead, there's a shitload of whining and complaining....there are people who scold and criticise too much and praise too little....there are others who think we're effing robots...there are people who goof off, can't finish their work then wail and whine and throw silent tantrums when they get chastised. But hey~! You keep your head down and soldier on. Isn't that what a good little worker bee is supposed to do? Not question but just DO. Every darned thing that needs doing in the hive.

Some days I really wish I had a good pair of soundproof headphones.

It's really funny how somethings that haven't crossed your mind for so many years just suddenly pop out of the blue and surprise you.

Random thoughts just pop in and out and you don't really pay attention until one comes up and smacks you on the head with its clarity. And then you realize, at the time, just how important it was that you did SOMETHING.

And you didn't.

Chalk it up to immaturity. Or maybe simple blur-ness. But maybe it was your own insecurities speaking. Either way, you let the chance pass and no matter how you try and lay the blame on others...you'd have to admit you didn't do anything.

Perhaps that is the problem. And has always been.

No sense in pointing fingers. Or even regrets. Simply move on; hold those sighs close to your heart for a moment and let them go.

Carpe diem~!

Ok I'll be the first to admit that I suck at maintaining this blog.

Life has been nothing but endless monotony broken by....hmmm....did I say broken?
I've pretty much nothing to say about my day to day happenings...unless I blog about what I ate for lunch which is probably the only uncertain thing each day!

So....what do I have to ramble about anyways? It gets real depressing when all one sees on this blog is complaints or obscure references to this or that bitch. Kinda like a perpetual dark cloud. I keep waiting for it to rain but so far all I hear is the teeny faraway sound of thunder. Very faint but there.

Oh well...the last few weeks have been really draining....physically and mentally. Some parts of it, I prefer to shut out and pretend it didn't happen. Others, I am really glad they did.

I just wanna say a big "Thank you! I love you!!" to my girls! You both have been the absolute best!! I will miss you and all the kooky shit we do! :) I'm gonna miss the incessant bloop bloop of Skype! ROTFL~!!

Promise we'll stay in touch; go karaoke, bowling, Genting, shopping (ooh doesn't this light your fire Jenneh!), yumcha-ing and all.... *sniffles* Many hugz and kisses.... WE STILL HAVEN'T GONE FOR A PROPER OUTING LERRRRR~! KW WHEN'RE YOU FREE???

SUNBURST~!!

FREE TIX BABY~! Did I mention the five free bottles of Tuborg? No?

LOLZ~!!

THANK YOU WQ~!!!

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice?
Me? Salad-anything? You have GOT to be joking! *makes disgusted face*

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
None in particular at the mo....

What do you like to put on your toast?
Condensed milk or curry chicken

**********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many television sets are in your house?
One that is just collecting dust in my already dusty pigpen

Color of cell phone do you have?
Black....a little gold

***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Oohhh~! Don't I WISH!

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Groceries I guess....a way overdue grocery shopping trip

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
By others, nope.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you gonna die?
Not really.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Of course! If I could I'd change my life too.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
If you added three more zeroes behind, yes!

************DUMBOLOGY******************
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Probably five? Six? Erm...

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Never. I'm too fast.

Last person you talked to?
Wai Quan

Last person you hugged?
Mum....

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season?
Winter!

Holiday?
Christmas I guess...

Day of the week?
At the mo....I'd say Friday.

Month?
December

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing Someone?
Yeah...

Mood?
Decidedly melancholy

What are you listening to?
Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback

Watching?
If you count DeviantWatch...

Worrying about?
Too many things...I'm a chronic worrier

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning?
The office...

What's the last movie you saw?
Slumdog Millionaire

Do you smile often?
Not anymore

QUESTIONS
1)Do you always answer your phone?
If I hear it ring or vibrate, then yes.

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Someone who will be verbally ripped to shreds so fine, dust will be gigantic in comparison!

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Probably blue...a deep dark mysterious blue.

4) Do you own a digital camera?
Oh yes~!

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
No. If I did it'd die.

7) Favorite Christmas song?
All I Want For Christmas - Olivia Olson

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
So many things....but tops on my list is a new life and a new body

9) Can you do push ups?
Hell no! I'm too fat!

10) Can you do a chin up?
*points to Q9*

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Right now? Nervous...worried...sad...

12) Do you have any saved texts?
What kind?

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Ah. Yeah.

14) Do you have an accent?
I'm told I have an American accent sometimes...and a British accent other times. Sigh.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

16) Plans tonight?
nothing certain yet

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
I am constantly slamming my head against rock bottom

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Eclipse mints, Japanese chocolates...& a silver ring with a chain

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Graduation. Mutual exchange. sigh...

20) Met someone who changed your life?
Everyday.

21) How did you bring in the New Year!
On the couch with the PotC Trilogy. Thanks HBO~!

22) Name three people who might complete this?
I. Don't. Care.

23) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
Sending my Sim on a Dream Date.

24) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Damn is it 7??!!!

People who have lousy photography skills but think they are extremely good at it should really NEVER be allowed near a camera much less be allowed to own one! It's even more annoying when they wax lyrical about their "styles".
it just really induces a sudden extreme desire to punch said people in the face

Hmm....

My Life Path No. is 1

The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. Many of our military generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path 1. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are very good at getting the ball rolling; initiating new projects is your forte. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. You have a tendency to do this, even if, at times, it is not appropriate for you to do so.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You tire of routine and highly detailed tasks rather quickly.

You are ambitious and assertive in promoting yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you can be self-centered and demand to have your way in many circumstances. That said, for the most part, you are considered very good company, friendly, good-natured, and a wonderful conversationalist. People like you and are drawn to you. It is a good thing they are, because you are very sensitive to disapproval and you don't handle it very well.

There are several ways that the negative side of the 1 can show up. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Unfortunately, sometimes you have to follow for a while before you are allowed to lead and this can be a difficult time. When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent, particularly in the early years. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This might be defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Avoid being too bossy and demanding.

Really? Quite accurate? Or off the mark?

I probably have always known what a shallow hypocritical person you were but I didn't want to see it.

I'm glad that when I finally did everything became clear.
For a while I beat myself up about being such an idiot...about being so blind...about caring so much when you clearly didn't...

Now I know I was the lucky person.
The better person.

Because even now you still are that same shallow hypocritical person you are.
And I am so much better off without you.
Perhaps one day I'll forgive you...and pass it off as a character flaw and immaturity.
But right now, it's all I can do to be civil in your presence.

I hope one day you'll learn some humility...some gratitude and some brains.
I hope I'll learn forgiveness.

I'm sorry but the more I see of you the more incensed I get.
And bitter...
And sad........

So I shall do my best to avoid you. Until one day when I am big enough to forgive and forget...until I am big enough to let go.

Until I know you have no hold on me and I am a whole person again.

Till then, goodbye.

Credits: http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com

All we ever wanted growing up was to live our dreams...
Looking back, the futility of it all makes me want to laugh...
Of course we label the little points of light "Hope"...
No need to tell anyone when they go out, you just pretend they're still there...
Even when the darkness looms and suffocates you, you keep soldering on...

Because that's life.

Love songs....they are every-freaking-where...
You turn on the radio and chances are nine out of ten times, it's a love song.
Break-up songs...please-love-me songs...I'm-on-top-of-the-world songs....

You go into a supermarket or a mall and the songs they play are love songs.
You go home and some one in your house is playing a love song...

Bloody hell.

I used to not notice the types of songs when I listen to music but now, my mind automatically recoils at any sort of reference to the four-lettered L word. Which sucks because all I can listen to now are dark twisty sort of screamy songs. And these songs play havoc with my already messed up mind.

Shucks.

I hate love songs. And I hate being me.

I must be suffering from major hormonal imbalance.....

SHIT!

I've posted everything I want to say about 2008 and this New Year in another blog...totally password protected because there are things I needed to say that didn't need to be public. *shrugs*

Whatever....

But here's a pic which pretty much says all I want to say.

Taken from: Xutopia on DeviantArt who's a really talented Chinese Vietnamese.

Ok....I liked it so much I pretty much changed it a lil and moved it here...WHEE~!!
*blush*

Oh well, it's almost the new year...time for changes and all that~!
:)

Oh and by the way, Credits are in the Sidebar...there to stay until I get frisky again! Lolz~!
In any case, do click and take a look at their galleries; they all have amazing work!! :)

I think I'm in love with the blog header I did for my....angsty blog~!
Supplemented by the falling snow extra the very nice blog server added....

CEST MAGNIFIQUE~!!

Lolz~!

Just another week...where the weekend felt somewhat empty and unfullfiling...(it's me laaa)

Randomly decided to change my player colour to red instead of the normal blue...maybe because I'm tired of feeling blue and I'm looking to feeling...I dunno...alive I suppose?

Sometimes I feel that if I didn't puff up after drinking, and if I really liked the taste, I might've become an alco...lucky eh? But at least I know FOR SURE I'll NEVER become a smoker. Bloody arseholidic people can just go die!

I mean, if you wanna go smoke yourself to an early grave, then by all means! Please don't smoke around us who would actually like to live long enough to see our grandchildren go to University!! I especially HATE the arses who smoke when people eat. Hello...breathing it isn't enough the blardy smoke actually taints the food as well can?
*screams in frustration*

And Jap classes are postponed...AGAIN....

Why? Missing THREE people to get a class started. SO if next week still don't have the three then how? Post-pone again?

On another random note...I really wanna watch Singin' In The Rain. Dunno what came over me one day and I Youtube-d it and now I really wanna watch. Which means I wanna buy the DvD...which, by extension, means I wanna go home.

I'm rambling. Whatever.

In any case, I stopped following ANTM (C11) for a while because the Youtube channel mysteriously disappeared but a blog I follow pretty much gives ok updates. So, the Asian girl is gone (I liked her! She had sass!) so no first Asian-American ANTM! And that Elina is gone too. No surprise since it's becoming so bloody obvious! The judges are a biased lot and quite frankly, a couple of girls should've gone home so much earlier but are still there. Their photos are lackluster (to say the least!) and really they are ANNOYING! Also, the constant camera-hogger, Tyra, is starting to really grate. This is ANTM...not the Tyra Show! Pffft!!

Oh well...the sum of the week...and the month pretty much...erm...don't know what else to say except trying to go swimming regularly is like trying to pull a really HUGE turnip out of the ground. (I'm sure you've read the story before) Needs a whole blardy entourage and usually that doesn't even happen. Best thing is, it wasn't even my idea in the first place! BAH~!

I feel fatter...which makes me feel even more uncontented...which makes me feel inadequate...which makes me feel like reaching for a bottle...which also makes me feel like puking. So clearly I'm an unhappy person.

Sue me!

I shall now attempt to figure out alternative methods to aiding sleep. I figure I'm cranky because I CANNOT SLEEP and the freakin heat isn't helping!!! *sigh*

Ok, enough rambling and ranting...back to work! *extra long sigh*

Ok...I really REALLY need a model!!!!

Female - duh!
Preferably with curly hair (long is better so I don't have to digitally add long hair) and is able to jump. You'd be surprised how hard it is! Lolz~!
Ok...if not, someone who can stand on tiptoe for certain periods of time.

Know anyone? :S

By the way, this is all for a personal project ok? So the only thing I can probably offer is maybe teh peng at a mamak? Or dinner (at a stretch)...

Muackz!

“My problem with Hamlet was how the hell do you do this thing physically, how do you breathe it? Not only is the play very long but you discover that this bastard Shakespeare has put three huge soliloquies one almost directly after another.” - Alan Rickman

LOLZ~!!!!!!

Just needed something to laugh at... :)

Yes, I've been absolutely GAGA over the High School Musical 3's Soundtrack and yes it's a little childish but so what?

Sometimes I think we just have to step back and allow ourselves to be children for a while...or else we might just break. Or maybe it's just me.

In any case, will be changing my little player at the side soon. LOLZ~!!

"High school musical, who sez we have to let it go?" - Cast, HSM3

:p

IT'S HALLOWEEN~!!!!

*woot wooooottttttt*

I wanna dress up.....

Pic credits: http://davenit.deviantart.com/art/Halloween-2008-101458892