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Thursday, June 11, 2009


I am temporarily experiencing a monumental change in myself.

Ok I am TRYING to change myself.
Constant melancholia does absolutely nothing for a person and frankly, I really do wanna try.

So for a while, I will be blogging at http://www.psychopinkcupcake.blogspot.com which is everything I usually am NOT.

Trying to be happy and upbeat is pretty tiring but hey...I'm hanging in there. ;)

Maybe one day I will be able to do something that really makes ME proud to be me. Till then I'll focus on just being happy.

Moody thoughts will still appear here though...no one can become Pollyanna in just a week!
Wish me luck on trying to change myself for the better~!!

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Ok I'll be the first to admit that I suck at maintaining this blog.

Life has been nothing but endless monotony broken by....hmmm....did I say broken?
I've pretty much nothing to say about my day to day happenings...unless I blog about what I ate for lunch which is probably the only uncertain thing each day!

So....what do I have to ramble about anyways? It gets real depressing when all one sees on this blog is complaints or obscure references to this or that bitch. Kinda like a perpetual dark cloud. I keep waiting for it to rain but so far all I hear is the teeny faraway sound of thunder. Very faint but there.

Oh well...the last few weeks have been really draining....physically and mentally. Some parts of it, I prefer to shut out and pretend it didn't happen. Others, I am really glad they did.

I just wanna say a big "Thank you! I love you!!" to my girls! You both have been the absolute best!! I will miss you and all the kooky shit we do! :) I'm gonna miss the incessant bloop bloop of Skype! ROTFL~!!

Promise we'll stay in touch; go karaoke, bowling, Genting, shopping (ooh doesn't this light your fire Jenneh!), yumcha-ing and all.... *sniffles* Many hugz and kisses.... WE STILL HAVEN'T GONE FOR A PROPER OUTING LERRRRR~! KW WHEN'RE YOU FREE???

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Monday, April 13, 2009


Thank you, Susan Boyle.... everytime I watch this, I will remind myself that even if I am 47 and the world laughs at me, if I believe and if I know I can....I will make it.

All I need to do is believe...and grab the chance.

I can't embed it here so I'll leave the link....please do click it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

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Monday, April 06, 2009


Thank you SG.... :)


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Thursday, March 19, 2009


SUNBURST~!!














FREE TIX BABY~! Did I mention the five free bottles of Tuborg? No?

LOLZ~!!

THANK YOU WQ~!!!

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Monday, March 16, 2009


***********FOOD-OLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice?
Me? Salad-anything? You have GOT to be joking! *makes disgusted face*

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
None in particular at the mo....

What do you like to put on your toast?
Condensed milk or curry chicken

**********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many television sets are in your house?
One that is just collecting dust in my already dusty pigpen

Color of cell phone do you have?
Black....a little gold

***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Oohhh~! Don't I WISH!

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Groceries I guess....a way overdue grocery shopping trip

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
By others, nope.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you gonna die?
Not really.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Of course! If I could I'd change my life too.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
If you added three more zeroes behind, yes!

************DUMBOLOGY******************
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Probably five? Six? Erm...

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Never. I'm too fast.

Last person you talked to?
Wai Quan

Last person you hugged?
Mum....

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season?
Winter!

Holiday?
Christmas I guess...

Day of the week?
At the mo....I'd say Friday.

Month?
December

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing Someone?
Yeah...

Mood?
Decidedly melancholy

What are you listening to?
Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback

Watching?
If you count DeviantWatch...

Worrying about?
Too many things...I'm a chronic worrier

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning?
The office...

What's the last movie you saw?
Slumdog Millionaire

Do you smile often?
Not anymore

QUESTIONS
1)Do you always answer your phone?
If I hear it ring or vibrate, then yes.

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Someone who will be verbally ripped to shreds so fine, dust will be gigantic in comparison!

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Probably blue...a deep dark mysterious blue.

4) Do you own a digital camera?
Oh yes~!

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
No. If I did it'd die.

7) Favorite Christmas song?
All I Want For Christmas - Olivia Olson

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
So many things....but tops on my list is a new life and a new body

9) Can you do push ups?
Hell no! I'm too fat!

10) Can you do a chin up?
*points to Q9*

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Right now? Nervous...worried...sad...

12) Do you have any saved texts?
What kind?

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Ah. Yeah.

14) Do you have an accent?
I'm told I have an American accent sometimes...and a British accent other times. Sigh.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

16) Plans tonight?
nothing certain yet

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
I am constantly slamming my head against rock bottom

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Eclipse mints, Japanese chocolates...& a silver ring with a chain

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Graduation. Mutual exchange. sigh...

20) Met someone who changed your life?
Everyday.

21) How did you bring in the New Year!
On the couch with the PotC Trilogy. Thanks HBO~!

22) Name three people who might complete this?
I. Don't. Care.

23) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
Sending my Sim on a Dream Date.

24) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Damn is it 7??!!!

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Sunday, March 15, 2009


Standing at the edge of the abyss that sits in the exact centre of me, I sway....shocked as a wave of deep anger and hatred bursts from the depths of that bottomless pit.
I feel it as it consumes me...the bright flames burning as they twine around me like a snake. The light reaches the very edges of my mind, showing me the demons hiding in the shadows as they crawl closer; attracted to the scent of burning flesh.

For an instant, I open my arms, ready to welcome them...ready to embrace the deep pain and cruel revelations they bring. Hoping that for once I would lose myself in the darkness and turn my pain into the wails and cries of others. Yet, before they touch me, a door in that endless corridor flies open, its black depths welcoming...promising a respite.

I take it.

With all the force of my mind, I banish the flames deep into that door. I brick up the door as frantically as I can, even as other bricked up doors begin to rattle. Soon, the air is filled with a teeth-rattling chaos of sounds. Shoving the final brick into place, the sounds begin to subside. Slumping to the floor, I wait as the sounds slowly disappear, muffled once again by the layers of brick and mortar...as the demons crawl back into the shadows; waiting for another chance.

And there is only silence left...silence and an unbearable loneliness.

Sitting there in the dark, I stare once again at the black depths of a hole that seems to have always been there. And I wait...because there is nothing left for me.

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