*Note: This is a Dear John/Jane letter to a certain person (or is it a few specific people) who I would wish to remain anonymous here on this blog. Don't bother asking me who he/she/they is/are.

Dear John/Jane,

I want you to know that I am very tired. I am very tired of this supposed friendship that we have. You see, it is not a friendship when one side feels used and overlooked.

As Hugh Grant in Love Actually said,
"I love the word: Relationship. Covers all manner of sins, doesn't it? I fear that this has become a bad relationship. A relationship based on the President taking exactly what he wants and casually ignoring all those things that really matter to, erm... Britain."
Well, if you substitute the President with yourself you'd get me. Hmm...

Anyways, I am so sick of you finding me only when you need me. I am so sick of you judging me. I don't need to be judged and I certainly don't judge you. I think its time to realize that there are other human beings on this planet too, not just you and yes, humans HAVE feelings. I am tired of you imposing your views on me and always expecting me to just nod and agree without ever considering what I have to say. Even when you do hear me, its very clear that you are not listening. I'm tired of having to pander to you and putting you first.

I'm sorry but you see, I have a life too. I can't be expected to drop EVERYTHING when you decide you want me around. Which isn't very often. I dont know if you've noticed but our time together has become very strained. I no longer click with you and I don't think you even realize it because all you want is for me to listen. I know all about the stuff you want me to know but you don't care about my side because you never bothered. All you do is take take take and you never bother to give. Or maybe you give too much. Of yourself.

All I want to say to you is, to get on in life you have to consider the people around you. They are important too you know. They are the people who listen to you and who see you. If you go on the way you are going you're in for a rude awakening some day...and as much as I have given up on you, I don't want to see that happen. So...good luck to you someday.

I honestly don't know how to deal with this right now but its funny how a friend said we needed a break and all I said was, "After we meet I can't WAIT for another break!" That's not good but I guess I really am very very tired. I don't think you'll read this because I don't think you come here. You might think it cowardly (if you read this) that I'm not telling you to your face. The truth is that I have but you've never listened. So I gave up and here it is. So, for now let's go our own way and see what the future brings. Maybe this is just a phase but somehow I don't think so.

Goodbye, my friend. You are and always will be my friend. When you figure out that I'm not a discardable paper doll or a replacement, think of me and maybe we might figure it out. Till then I'm not going to bother with you.

Sincerly and perhaps a little angsty,
Jo