It's strange....

When I was young I had this habit that every kid probably does. I didn't out grow it until I was halfway through primary school. I made myself give it up through a force of will because I wanted something so badly.

I did the same thing with my nail-biting habit. I had a horrible habit of biting my nails until there was barely anything left. I'd even bite til I drew blood but it never bothered me. I'd lick it dry and just nibble once the ache went away...

Almost feels like I deliberately hurt myself....

I told myself I'd never be able to give it up because I was so used to it. To make my fingers stay away from my teeth was like trying to take a fish out of water. But one day, I stopped. Just like that. Because I wanted something so badly and that was the price.

It was hard...very very hard....but I made it.

Now, I've been telling myself and everyone I will never lose weight. That I'll be a hippo forever. But now, I will do it.

Because I want something so badly....