It's exam time again...

*heaves a huge sigh*

Time to GAMBATEH and to burn the midnight oil....seeing as the end is so near...it makes me worry so much more (hence the fact that my face rather resembles a sponge pad now)...not to mention the additional pressure of doing well so I can go further my studies overseas...

Truthfully, I am TERRIFIED of going overseas...why?
1) I'm going for Masters which might mean studying with ppl not of my age group
2) General loneliness
3) Inability to do well (Hello...first day you know that I'm a perfectionist ar?)
4) Being unable to fit in...
and so much more...

I did consider just going to Singapore but...truth be told...I want so much more...

"I want adventure in the great wild somewhere, I want it more than I can tell...and for once it might be grand, to have someone understand. I want so much more than they've got planned..." - Belle (Beauty & The Beast)

I want to see things...experience LIFE! See the world! I have a fear of a mundane life and somehow...going to Singapore seems to tie me down here. I WANT to make my way in the world! But I'm so afraid of that first step...

But for now, I have to make sure that I keep my eyes on the prize and work hard (hardy har har) and try my hardest for this exam! Not to mention making sure a certian biatch doesn't ruin my chances of getting what I want!

*sighs*

Motivation....I need to motivate myself!!!
(I need to start my thesis....)