Am suffering from massive insomnia and a little bit of narcolepsy....I get so tired but am unable to sleep. Then when I get too tired I just conk out.

Bit shitty when you're driving!!

Then again....was supposed to go to Zouk today but I just keeled over in front of my comp at about 7pm, came to about a few mins later and fell asleep on the floor (which is COLD). Geez...I'm sorry Ping and I'm sorry Venez, esp since I haven't been meeting up with you guys for a while now.

And on anther note, I must be the worst friend in the whole goddamn universe. I was wondering why a few days seemed rather odd to me the past months....like there was something important I missed and THEN I realized all those days were friend's birthdays. *slaps self*

I forgot Hunny's....Sorry babe!!

I forgot Lyn's....HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!

I forgot some more and I feel so ashamed...BAH!!!

All in all, its not been a good day. Am seriously lacking in moolah and I'm having a real bad attack of procrastination-itis. I WILL FINISH MY THESIS!!!

*sighs sadly*

Finally told mum how much I hated what I was doing....AFTER she unveiled her "masterplan" for me. I'm sorry mum but...I don't think I can do this. (Not that you'd read this since you don' come here....I hope....)

I guess I've been miserable for so long I'd forgotten what misery really is....until I met some old friends who were going after what they really wanted and I'd realize how many stupid choices I made. I was an idiot. So...I'll stick it out for the last two sems then I'm gonna go for what I want. I hope I can find the courage to tell you...and to go for it. It seems so simple to just take a 9-5 job but that scares the shit outta me so....I'm NEVER gonna go for it.

And yes, I think I am pathologically unable to believe that compliments directed at me are true. So I'm not fishing for compliments when I say I don't believe it...I really don't and can't.

I'm rambling...mind's flying everywhere and I NEED to SLEEP.

*shuffles around*

AHA!!!

*spots shiny green pills*

Goodnight peeps!!!!!!! *pops one*

Ps: On another note, "Rise:Blood Hunter" is the dumbest vampire/thriller fest EVER. If you like blood and gore *licks lips* and lousy flat storylines, this is the movie for you!!