You know something?

I am so SICK of being a freaking punch bag for every person who has stress in this whole goddamned Uni.

I am blardy SICK of having to act like I'm fine when all I really wanna do is give certain people a tight slap across the fucking face.

I am freaking TIRED of having to hear all about you and seeing your black face when it was NOT MY GODDAMNED FAULT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I am also REALLY REALLY SICK of having to be the one to be yelled at, pointed at, accused, whined at, complained at, given the most stupid excuses I have ever heard in the whole face of this freaking planet...the list just DRAGS on.

I am panicking like MAD and I HAVE to look calm. How else is everyone supposed to function if I started looking as harrassed and stressed as I feel??? I have to be encouraging when really I want to rip their stupid vapid faces to shreds everytime they ask stupid questions and give me shit and think they the stuff.

I am so goddammed EXHAUSTED and I STILL have to look like EVERYTHING is fine even though it is NOT.

I can't even cry over this shit though I blew the dam the other day for another super stressful reason. I can't even SCREAM my frustrations.

I am SICK of having to answer questions that others who were at meetings SHOULD KNOW. I am SICK of people making changes WITHOUT my APPROVAL SO WHEN IT TANKS I GET TO TAKE THE BASHING. I am SICK sick SICK sick SICK of having to listen when all I want to do is try my goddamned best to SLEEP.

Yes SLEEP!!!!

I did NOT sleep AT ALL for THREE NIGHTS cos I was so stressed and the sum total of my sleeptime is probably 8hrs a week?? And still I'm expected to function like a Superwoman. Thank goodness my prescription is coming!!!

All I have to say is GO TO HELL!

Ps : This rant refers to many many many many people all of whom had better watch out cos I've been nothing but nice so far. But push it and I swear to whatever's up there that I'll make you sorry you were born.