I raise my face to the sky
The cold rain falls on my cheeks
Rage builds and suddenly they mingle
Cool rain and hot tears
Like a drop of fire
In an ocean of ice

I feel so much anger
I feel my hair begin to fall
I feel a deep sharp pain in my heart
I know
I don't have long

I want to finish what I started
12 years ago
Fear of the unknown
Stays my hand
Grips me in a web of grief and guilt

Some who have touched my life
I thank you
Some who have screwed me
I believe one day you'll understand
What its like to be in my shoes
Someday

The day ends
The sun sets
Erratic thoughts
Hateful feelings
Fear, anger, hatred, despair
Panic, doubt, self-loathing, disgust
Like a churning ocean of fire

Who said you knew me?
Who said anyone did?
Who said you ever knew what I truly felt
Inside?

Screaming into the abyss
With no one to hear
I put back my mask
And remind you

You really don't know me at all....