You think you know somebody...
Then they stab you in the back

You are kind and watch out for them...
They say you suffocate them

You go out of your way so many times for them...
They say you are calculative

You always try and turn a negative comment about them into a positive one...
They say negative stuff about you to others

They stab you in the back...
You smile and pretend nothing's wrong

They talk about you behind your back...
You pretend you don't know a thing and you smile though it hurts so bad and you feel so fucking stupid

They misunderstand stuff and start acting all wounded though you're the one who should be hurt...
You smile and try to make it better for them

They act all concerned even when making two-ended comments...
You take a deep breathe and still do your best to act as though nothing has happened

What for?

I did it cos I thought we were friends.
I sacrificed so many things and so much time.
I watched your back and I helped you through so many rocky patches.
In the end...

I'm called calculative
I'm called proud
I'm called "high maintenence"

Guess what?

I'm sick.
Sick of this charade.
I want to cry but I will not give you that satisfaction.
I'd much rather be alone than pretend I am fine.

You've hurt me so much more because I've done so much for you. In the end, it was all for nothing.
But you know...all those things you said about me?
People can see for themselves what is the truth and what is....your own opinions.
So go on doing whatever you've been doing.

I'm tired and I don't want to try anymore. There is no point in working so hard when everything I do seems to "suffocate" you. Go make your own way in the world. I'll make mine.