Yesterday was a "Fat Day" (actually today is a Fat Day too....dammit)... what's a Fat Day you might ask?

A Fat Day is a day where one wakes up and feels so bloody fat they want to die. Yupz. I felt like I was too fat to live...that I should be shot dead! Felt so damned depressed poor Ping, Xinch and Bee Sim had to try and cheer me up!

Went to Vincci's/Padini's but that just made things worse cos there were like thousands of clothes I WISH I could bloody fit into....but won't be able to cos I so fucking fat. Later that night, went out with Sim and had a long chat about the damned world and how different it would be if we were so much slimmer...(ok...for me, WAY slimmer)...and truthfully....it would be different. I'd love to have that confidence in MYSELF for once...just to be able to walk out and feel comfortable in my skin....

Damned I'm feeling depressed again....am gonna go bury myself in my duvet. Hopefully I'll suffocate and the world will be rid of a fat walking waste of oxygen!!! *shuffles off dejectedly*