!~! Goodbye !~!
Air Supply

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

(bridge)
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

(chorus)
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say
But good-bye...

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

(bridge)
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

(chorus)
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say
But good-bye...

(chorus)
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way
Than to say good-bye...

This is truly goodbye...for me, I believe I have let you go. I have been silly and I might have been reading more into things than I should have. How stupid.

I will no longer put myself through all this. It's not worth it. Not when all the lasting damage, is damage I'm causing to myself.

Over the weekend, I mentioned to a friend that if it ever came down to it, I'd protect myself first. I'm glad that has finally sunk in. I am tired of always protecting others and putting them before myself. I will not intentionally hurt people; I am not that kind of person. But I will try to put myself first from now on.

As for him...I've realized that no matter what I feel, we are not really compatible anyway. He'd soon be miserable and so would I. A friend told me that if you cannot see a future, don't begin. You'll only hurt the other...and that's the truth.

So even if sometimes I do wish you were with me, I know what to think. I will no longer remain confused. Thank you for making me laugh and for making me smile. I won't forget and I thank you for cracking that cynical shell I've been slowly building. You somehow wormed your way in and I had no idea. but you showed me that sometimes laughter is truly the best medicine for a cynic.

Thank you and goodbye.